What is wrong... what did I do wrong

10/8/10

Its amazing I constructed this blog one year ago and never wrote a post until today.



I brought Peter (10 yr old) to the doctor yesterday for a hearing test and after hearing the results were "normal" I knew we needed to go to the next step. Peter has always been an old soul. Wise beyond his years and brilliant...so what is wrong. Peter has always experienced coping issues and distraction but now he is so counter productive, we need help. Is it that he has a cognitive issue... I thought that when I asked him if he wanted milk in his cereal and he replied, "what does a coconut have to do with it?"? Is it that its a hyperactive thing? Is it an over stimulation thing" This is Peter: Exhausted all the time, inability to focus, inability to let old feelings go, inability to follow multi step directions, very loud, feeling "wrong in the head", tons of excuses, poor grades, teachers feeling as if he is giving a poor effort or not working to full potential, and out in out disrespectful to his mother, everything is a battle. This is ME: I used to yell, scream, threaten, punish, and discipline, about 1 year ago I stopped all of it and just gave love until on some days utter frustration sets in and then all hell breaks loose and I need a Mommy time out. For the most part he recognizes at the end of the day he was acting out and being disrespectful. He will apologize, give me the sweetest hug, tell me he loves me but almost immediately after the embrace ends the next round of the same begins. Its exhausting, maybe it is for him as well and that is why he is so tired. Monday, Columbus Day we meet with a social worker and mid November he will be evaluated by a pediatric neurologist. Come along with me on this journey and I look forward to hearing your stories on how we can keep our family together, productive, and happy.